This past year has led me on a journey I never thought I would have ever been on. There were immense highs and hellish lows. I regret nothing. Everything was a learning experience.
I miss my husband terribly. I still love him with all my heart. I whole heartedly wish that things would have turned out differently. I’m still having a difficult time coming to terms with the reality of our relationship. I have a hard time saying it out loud.
Another year has passed and I’m still just as entrenched in my eating disorder now as I was 5 years ago. Maybe some of the behaviors have lessened or changed, but the thoughts are just as intense.
I went back to school and that was the best thing I ever could have done. I love every minute of it. I have no doubt that school saved my life this semester. And quite possibly the next one.
I’m looking forward to the new year. I want to be able to let go of my past and move on and grow.