It’s not that I want to ignore my past because it has made me who I am today. It’s just that I want to focus on the now and where I get to go from here.
I don’t fit neatly into a box. I like it that way. I’m too sensitive and take things too personally. I’ve worked hard to build up the wall around me. And now I’m working even harder on taking it down. I get bored easily, but don’t feel busy until I have 3 jobs at once. I’ve struggled with an eating disorder for the majority of my life, but have experienced periods of true recovery and health. I used to dance, but an injury stopped me. I almost can’t watch anything dance related because I get flooded with emotions.
I live a life in extremes. It’s either black or white. But I’m learning to live with, and enjoy, the grey. It’s just sometimes a little scary to leave behind the dark I know well.
I’ve started a new chapter of my life. I’m going back to school to earn a degree I really want. School is a lot of fun. I love everything about it, even the homework. (Although, I may deny that during finals. :p)