Sign Me Up!

I go to register for my summer and fall classes today after work!  I am super excited to be continuing my collegiate career.  I went through the undergraduate bulletin to research possible new majors for the post bac.  And not to be all dramatic about it, but I feel like a lot of it is dependent on this first class I’m taking (assuming that it’s not full and that my prerequisite applies).

It’s a human biology class.  I’m actually looking forward to delving into the world of genetics and DNA.  And I think this is close to the field that I am really thinking I’d like to pursue.  At least, right now.  But I really think this class is going to be the deciding factor.  Do I really want to challenge myself with something far more scientifically based than I originally thought?  If I were to continue on this path, my eventual focus would probably be along the lines of epidemiology or medical anthropology.

Now, if I’m not eligible for that class, I can take a philosophy class that fills one of the core requirements.  And if I don’t want to challenge myself, but still be fascinated by the subject matter, I’d like to focus on genocide/human trafficking.  I have read so much on the subject already.  This would definitely be the easier route, but it would still be enjoyable.

And I think either way I go, I’d like to end up teaching at the collegiate level.  I want to share the knowledge I have.  I enjoy teaching.  And I’m good at it.

I just hope I’m able to make a decision and not go through the hours of back and forth I normally do.


It’s Official!

As of yesterday evening, I was officially accepted into a private university to  start my post bac!  Granted it was through a continuing education department, so it wasn’t as difficult as if I had been applying to the “regular” school, but I’m still so excited!  I get to register on Monday and start my first class on Tuesday!

I’m excited to have a world of option opened up to me.  Now I just need to figure out what direction I want to go in.  Do want to go on the path where I already know the material?  Or do I really want to challenge myself?  And I’m hoping taking this first class will help me figure that out as it’s on the challenge side of the list.  🙂

I am anxious though.  It’s been a bit over 10 years since I’ve been in a proper class.  And even longer since I’ve taken a math class, which I will have to take.  Eventually.)  I’m hoping that I won’t be too lost.  Or too timid.  I just want to do the best that I can.

I think I’m more excited than anxious though.  But we’ll see how I feel come Tuesday!

Shaping My Future

Earlier this week, I got an email from the CEO of the NGO I want to work for.  I’m glad she remembered me.  I should have a job description within the next week and we have a meeting in 10 days.  I’m hoping between the job description, salary, and benefits, I can justify leaving my current position.  Whilst I’m very grateful I have a job, I really am not challenged or stimulated by it.  However, I get paid a very nice amount for the amount of actual work I do.  I’m very lucky and I understand that.  And I don’t want to leave unless it’s going to be worth it.  I just can’t justify leaving for triple the amount of work for the same or less salary.

I think if I weren’t married, then I’d be more likely to consider something with the same-ish salary.  I’d only be responsible for myself.  But I have a real future to think about and plan for and I want something that’s going to facilitate that.  And I think that the responsible thing to do is to probably concentrate on finding another job or go back to school.  This job gave me stability when I needed it.  And when I first got this job, it worked really well.  I was just learning a new business and it helped to take my mind off stuff.  I had been going through a pretty rough time with the eating disorder, and answering phones and other light duties was about all I could handle.  But since I’ve really been working on me the past 3 years, I feel I’ve gotten stronger.  And while I do still struggle (some days more than others), I’m in a much better place than I was.  And I want more.

I want to have a career, not just a job.  I want to be able to make a difference.  Just to one person.  I want to use the skills I have.  I want to challenge myself and push myself outside my comfort zone.

If I decide not to take the new position, I think I’m going to go back to school.  I think I’d like a second bachelor’s in something more science-y.  I’d like to see how far my brain can take me.  I guess, my ultimate goal in this route, would be teaching at the collegiate level.  There are a lot of subjects that I’m interested in–I have no idea how to narrow it down.

I’m excited to see where the future leads me.  I just the meeting would have happened already so I can start making some very important decisions.