I go to register for my summer and fall classes today after work! I am super excited to be continuing my collegiate career. I went through the undergraduate bulletin to research possible new majors for the post bac. And not to be all dramatic about it, but I feel like a lot of it is dependent on this first class I’m taking (assuming that it’s not full and that my prerequisite applies).
It’s a human biology class. I’m actually looking forward to delving into the world of genetics and DNA. And I think this is close to the field that I am really thinking I’d like to pursue. At least, right now. But I really think this class is going to be the deciding factor. Do I really want to challenge myself with something far more scientifically based than I originally thought? If I were to continue on this path, my eventual focus would probably be along the lines of epidemiology or medical anthropology.
Now, if I’m not eligible for that class, I can take a philosophy class that fills one of the core requirements. And if I don’t want to challenge myself, but still be fascinated by the subject matter, I’d like to focus on genocide/human trafficking. I have read so much on the subject already. This would definitely be the easier route, but it would still be enjoyable.
And I think either way I go, I’d like to end up teaching at the collegiate level. I want to share the knowledge I have. I enjoy teaching. And I’m good at it.
I just hope I’m able to make a decision and not go through the hours of back and forth I normally do.
As of yesterday evening, I was officially accepted into a private university to start my post bac! Granted it was through a continuing education department, so it wasn’t as difficult as if I had been applying to the “regular” school, but I’m still so excited! I get to register on Monday and start my first class on Tuesday!
I’m excited to have a world of option opened up to me. Now I just need to figure out what direction I want to go in. Do want to go on the path where I already know the material? Or do I really want to challenge myself? And I’m hoping taking this first class will help me figure that out as it’s on the challenge side of the list. 🙂
I am anxious though. It’s been a bit over 10 years since I’ve been in a proper class. And even longer since I’ve taken a math class, which I will have to take. Eventually.) I’m hoping that I won’t be too lost. Or too timid. I just want to do the best that I can.
I think I’m more excited than anxious though. But we’ll see how I feel come Tuesday!
Earlier this week, I got an email from the CEO of the NGO I want to work for. I’m glad she remembered me. I should have a job description within the next week and we have a meeting in 10 days. I’m hoping between the job description, salary, and benefits, I can justify leaving my current position. Whilst I’m very grateful I have a job, I really am not challenged or stimulated by it. However, I get paid a very nice amount for the amount of actual work I do. I’m very lucky and I understand that. And I don’t want to leave unless it’s going to be worth it. I just can’t justify leaving for triple the amount of work for the same or less salary.
I think if I weren’t married, then I’d be more likely to consider something with the same-ish salary. I’d only be responsible for myself. But I have a real future to think about and plan for and I want something that’s going to facilitate that. And I think that the responsible thing to do is to probably concentrate on finding another job or go back to school. This job gave me stability when I needed it. And when I first got this job, it worked really well. I was just learning a new business and it helped to take my mind off stuff. I had been going through a pretty rough time with the eating disorder, and answering phones and other light duties was about all I could handle. But since I’ve really been working on me the past 3 years, I feel I’ve gotten stronger. And while I do still struggle (some days more than others), I’m in a much better place than I was. And I want more.
I want to have a career, not just a job. I want to be able to make a difference. Just to one person. I want to use the skills I have. I want to challenge myself and push myself outside my comfort zone.
If I decide not to take the new position, I think I’m going to go back to school. I think I’d like a second bachelor’s in something more science-y. I’d like to see how far my brain can take me. I guess, my ultimate goal in this route, would be teaching at the collegiate level. There are a lot of subjects that I’m interested in–I have no idea how to narrow it down.
I’m excited to see where the future leads me. I just the meeting would have happened already so I can start making some very important decisions.